“The more I meditate, the more I realize my mind is a chatterbox”
by Jacqualine Haller
Founder & Director of Jaya Yoga Toronto and voice/creator of Jaya Meditation and “The “AUM” Project.
Today is day 28 of my 30 day meditation challenge with my students. We only have two more days remaining. What an experience it has been! I am changing through this process, and I’ve been noticing a few other things happening too.
I finished my class and spent part of the morning with the Lead Instructor of the Yoga Teacher Training (YTT) program at the studio, and a business owner herself. We had a few things we needed to go over, and we use the beginning of our time together to catch up. She asked how the meditation challenge was going, and I began to share with her the personal experience I have been going through, and what I have been learning over the years about Meditation in general. It comes down to a simple fact.
The more I meditate, the more I realize my mind is a chatterbox.
It is a place that I have stored everything, every experience, every emotion, every happiness and every disappoitment. It’s like a ‘chatterbox storage room’ full of a lifetime of emotions and experiences.
The interesting thing about this whole process is that just as you think you have mastered your meditation practice, life throws something else your way. A sidebar if you will, to challenge you and where you think you have ‘arrived.’
There is nothing more beautifully humbling than that. Just when you think you have it all figured out, there comes along another challenge for you to explore this practice with. But, it helps you get through those experiences with ease, much greater ease then you normally would. (with less grey hair too)
And here I am now.
I am leading a 30 day meditation challenge with my local students and with students around the world. My chatterbox stuff is surfacing so I can acknowledge it, heal it and move on. We are all having a human experience, no matter what profession you choose. The distraction of the busy-ness of my life was keeping that chatterbox quiet. But, it was still there. It was still happening.
It was an illusion of quiet.
Those thoughts were simply laying low in my subconscious, yet they were still loud enough to steer my life. It is only in a space of internal quiet that I was able to notice them.
I also understand that in writing this, I will move through this experience and other life experiences will come my way which will challenge my practice even further. Life is a constant evolution, I get that. This is about nurturing and evolving the witness in yourself, so that you can see the thoughts that have been holding you back. You can start to clean up the storage room where you have buried your thoughts and emotions for years. You are simply a witness as they surface so you can face them and move on.
When we take the time to create a space of internal quiet, it allows the luggage of our thoughts to surface. We no longer need to carry them around with us in life. It is time to release the burden of incessant thinking that keeps us in repeated patterns, so that we can break through any perceived barriers and limitations, and move forward.
This is a journey. Anyone who embarks on this path needs to understand that it is a practice. Your practice will be an evolution, a process of experience, and an opportunity to move forward from limiting patterns and beliefs systems. It is extremely rewarding and life becomes clearer. Drop the stuff that is holding you back, become aware and allow yourself to evolve into the best version of you.
Meditation helps us to become stealth as we move through life. As we let go, we become lighter!
In closing, I wanted to share with you a quote by my favorite Montreal designer, Marie Saint Pierre, who recently posted on her Instagram page the following: “Feel the fear, and do it anyway!”
You are bigger then anything that scares you. Be brave enough to look at yourself and deal with what you see. It is rewarding, I promise you. What an amazing way to live!
Everyone is invited to join me for my next Guided Meditation series!
“Relaxing Night-Time Guided Meditations” led by myself!
10 days – 20 minutes – $50 Starting October 10 – 19th
Unwind after a long day, cozy up in bed or your favourite spot, link in and drift away!
Register and receive the links. Connect any time of the day, in any continent and in any time zone.
Register online at www.jayameditation.com and/or www.jayayoga.ca
I hope you will join me!